on a brighter note, my hair is pink

-xokitty

 I keep having this crazy fantasy of running away. leave everything behind. start new. I would go to california. I love california. I have cousins there. I love my cousins so much. I can just imagine it. Renting a room at my cousin's home. I'm sure she would let me. new job. new friends? love? who knows. new me. away from this. the sadness. the emptiness. california makes me happy. there's the aching in my heart and the vomit in my throat. it takes over my mind and my body and I can't take it anymore. I want to run. I want to leave. I'm scared. It scares me. but it's just a fantasy. nothing more. 

-xokitty

 How can you love someone so much and still know they're not right for you? 

How can you know someone isn't right for you and still continue to stay?

How can you continue to stay when it makes you so unhappy?

How can you be so unhappy when you love someone so much?

-xo kitty

 hey people.... sorry I went a little MIA there 0-0 one thing y'all should know is I'm a notorious ghoster but I almost always come back ;p

in fact I could tell you about this years long friendship I had with this kid on kik (if you know you know) I would delete the app and lose contact for months or sometimes year and then reconnect but anyways that's its own story for another post so lmk if y'all wanna hear it!!

(we are no longer friends)

-xokitty

so loves I read another book! The Love Hypothesis by Ali Hazelwood -- in a single day 0-0 so clearly I enjoyed it lol but anyways super good book and I would highly recommend!! It’s of course a romance novel, as far as spice level goes it’s got just slight spice I would give it about a 🌶️🌶️🌶️ rating level :) super cute book!!

One of my main reasons for reading this book next is because I heard a movie is coming out of it and I definitely wanted to read it before watching (which I in fact did backwards with It Ends With Us) anywaysss looking forward to the movie! Not sure I would have imagined Lili Reinhart to play Olivia but I’m not complaining :p

I am now currently reading Verity by Colleen Hoover!!

-xokitty

 also guys I just have to ask why is Kyle Gallner so goddamn hot. 

 okay guys so I finally finished reading "I'm Thinking of Ending It" by Iain Reid!

let me just say... wow. so many thoughts. so many emotions. not once did I know what was going to happen next. and the ending? honestly, at first, I wasn't loving the book and by the end I was so confused but then it just all clicked. the whole book is a metaphor for mental illness and disorders.

it's not for everyone but if you're looking for psychological thriller, I would recommend!

-xokitty

 im a john q lover girl now #dinnerinamerica

so punk rock

-xokitty

 ive been in such a reading slump lately it's so crazy guys :(

 ok guys I actually just watched dinner in america for the first time and holy moly. thats all I have to say.

-xokitty

 good morning my kitty queens, today is the first day in a while that I got to sleep in :3 yayayay anyways I'm getting my nails done today and getting my hair done next week I'm so so excited !!!

I hope all my kittens have a great great day today :>