on a brighter note, my hair is pink

-xokitty

 I keep having this crazy fantasy of running away. leave everything behind. start new. I would go to california. I love california. I have cousins there. I love my cousins so much. I can just imagine it. Renting a room at my cousin's home. I'm sure she would let me. new job. new friends? love? who knows. new me. away from this. the sadness. the emptiness. california makes me happy. there's the aching in my heart and the vomit in my throat. it takes over my mind and my body and I can't take it anymore. I want to run. I want to leave. I'm scared. It scares me. but it's just a fantasy. nothing more. 

-xokitty

 How can you love someone so much and still know they're not right for you? 

How can you know someone isn't right for you and still continue to stay?

How can you continue to stay when it makes you so unhappy?

How can you be so unhappy when you love someone so much?

-xo kitty